Day Three - Later On

Now, as I try not to feel too self-involved with my potential illness, I wonder how best equanimity can serve me in this state.

Unsure what has happened since our Morning Spirit (MS) gathering at 9 15am where 4 folk attended.

I am now feeling much the worse for wear and I wonder if it could be to do with a counselling preview appointment I had for my middle son who has been having some issues, especially since the death of his mum. As the senior therapist who saw me commented:

"you must have been through a lot"

And indeed from 27/10/08 My old life disappeared and a new one suddenly arose as a single father of three children with little support.

MS was lovely and as often happens where folk gather to simultaneously worship or be in silence or reverence to what is, a deep connection to the "source" or "being" or God then manifests itself. Usually this is in ways of feeling supported in posture, or healed in a similar way to reiki.

But since the counselling appointment I have felt extremely tired and lethargic, like I am just about to be struck down by a stampeding rhino virus.

Potentially I may try and just sit quietly before bed for 30mins stillness to see if that helps lighten my mood, until tomorrow....