Noticing that the expansion felt previously has changed to contraction. The monkey mind prevails and the no-self of RAW becomes totally involved with the play of life. Now I have become Hamlet and not actually playing the part of Hamlet.
How does this happen??
Despite a daily practise it is easy to get drawn back to the aspects and difficulties of life, of which mine has plenty, fortunately myself and immediate family are in generally good health, although my eldest has laryngitis, and have a nice house to live in for now but money is tight, holidays are looking unlikely and my children are emotionally upset by the death of their mum that happened over a year ago, understandably so. Also as the sole surviving parent the pressure upon me is immense.
These factors of life all seemingly conspire to make the contraction happen. To lose oneself in the void of life and no longer feel as connected to being/god or the present moment. On the plus side I am aware of this which might help.
Assuming god is everywhere, knows everything, has nothing to gain nor anything to lose; and we are all made in the creation of God then similarly we all have the ability to be equally as well balanced as god, seemingly it is only life that puts this balance at odds. Kinda ironic.
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