Day 30

I have had such a headache for the last two hours and I am trying to work out whether it may be caused by drinking some very strong coffee earlier; or something else. My overall feeling is that it's the coffee.

This leads to a conclusion for me and the work I have done in meditation practise of sensing and feeling sensations in the body. 

The idea is that regardless of what feeling may arise: mindfully that feeling is treated with equanimity, and in doing so the impermanence of feelings that are painful can be seen; conversely the impermanence of pleasurable feelings is also seen.

So now when we look at god, God, being, universe, love or however you would like to label that which is. God can be felt, just like my headache (which is thankfully passing). 
Rather than potentially seeing god or Jesus or any other historical figure of reverence, the universal nature of love can be felt and unlike feelings of body sensation it is seemingly permanent BUT the big converse factor is that the impermanent nature of our own existence then makes god's presence seem impermanent. It is not the case that god is impermanent; how could it be ? Rather this is simply a reflection of our own mortality, we arise in god and god similarly arises in us. That may sound paradoxical, but for me it seems to hold truth.

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